Firefly Lane Season 1 Episode 4 kicks off with Kate and Marah heading to what seems like Tully’s funeral. But while the mood is somber, there’s also an aura of serenity.
Unfortunately, the whole scene is short-lived, and the rest of the episode keeps the two-year flash-forward a mystery. So, it could be Tully’s funeral, it could be someone else’s.
In college flashbacks, we see Tully’s experience with her teacher, Professor Wiley. Yes, the Chad Wiley she was making out with at the end of Firefly Lane Season 1 Episode 3. Who expected him to be the journalism professor that guided her in the on-air sphere? Not me!
Initially, I thought maybe Wiley had been Tully’s more serious and promising relationship, but now, it’s clear that it continued down the same path of dysfunctional and problematic. At least, that’s what it looks to be now.
Wiley, who gave off the impression that he didn’t like her in class, does try to stop their hook-up, but we know that they eventually give into temptation.
In high school flashbacks, Tully and Kate decide to skip school and get high together. That’s when Tully informs Kate that she might be pregnant since she hasn’t gotten her period since Pat raped her. The thought is horrifying, and you hope that it isn’t the case, so when she eventually gets her period, it truly is a moment of relief and joy. I’m also impressed with the show for showing a bloody piece of toilet paper and owning it. It’s about time we normalize things like periods!
The storyline parallels what’s unfolding in the present-day as Tully wakes up the morning after she passed out from drinking too much following her fight with Max.
Kate is worried about her, but Tully shrugs it off as nothing before Kate’s mother suggests the hot flashes and memory loss may be menopause settling it. Tully is terrified by the possibility since she’s only 43 and it means that her chances of having children — even though it seems like she’s never entertained the idea of having any — are gone.
However, the episode takes another unexpected turn when Tully reveals two lines on a pregnancy test, which means she’s pregnant with Max’s baby. Yes, at 43.
The idea of having a child past the age of 40 is frowned upon mostly because society has deemed it unacceptable. There’s a stigma against older parents, particularly, older moms. And while there are risks that come with having children once you are older, a woman’s life doesn’t end at 40! Some women, like Tully, spend their 20s and 30s dedicated to a career and don’t even entertain the idea until they are older because they aren’t ready in their “prime.” And there’s plenty of advantages including financial stability, ready (and willing) to settle down, and a wealth of knowledge that you’ve acquired through the years.
So, while it’s entirely possible that Tully will choose to have an abortion (her prerogative) or will lose the baby, the simple fact that the series introduced this storyline is awesome and is reducing the stigma of waiting until later in life to have kids!
What do you think she’ll do?
The recital at the Ryan household is kind of a hot mess mainly because Johnny and Kate can’t figure out their relationship and poor Marah is caught right in the middle. You can say whatever you want, but children will always be affected by a divorce no matter how painless the parents try to make it.
The problem with Johnny and Kate is that there’s still a lot of love and chemistry between them. I mean, if Marah hadn’t come home from school, it would have been wild in that bedroom.
But that also doesn’t mean that they should give it another chance. I was all for giving it another go-around until their explosive fight during the recital.
It’s still unclear what led to their decision to divorce. It seems like Johnny was jealous as Kate flirted with Travis, and while emotional cheating is still cheating, it shouldn’t rock a solid relationship like Johnny and Kate’s.
The bigger issue to me was Johnny telling Kate he wanted to be with her while also making it clear he wasn’t going to reconsider leaving for Iraq. You can’t have your cake and eat it too.
My biggest gripe with this is that Johnny thinks he’s entitled to finding himself while Kate isn’t. As she pointed out, there are things she has wanted to do but couldn’t because she prioritized their family.
In all the flashbacks, we see her striving to be a groundbreaking news producer, but when we meet her at the beginning of the series, she’s given all of that up to be a stay at home mom.
Johnny didn’t even seem to acknowledge any of that because he was so focused on his own wants and needs. And while I get his side because it’s important not to lose yourself in your marriage and as a parent, but he wasn’t taking Kate’s wants or needs into consideration at all.
He was basically choosing to leave to do something he wanted while she continued to be a parent and put Marah’s needs above her own.
Kate has been disappointed, let down, and overlooked her whole life. She makes that perfectly clear during the flashback scenes in college when they go attend a dinner for her parent’s 25th anniversary.
We know she’s been in Tully’s shadow for most of her life, and she watches as her own family takes more of an interest in her best friend than they do in her.
Even her career path isn’t something her mother takes seriously, although she admires Tully’s work ethic in the same field.
Being exposed to that constantly takes a toll on you.
Kate’s also not someone that likes being lied to, but it seems as though she was surrounded by liars.
In the high-school flashbacks, she learns that her mother may have been cheating on her father, which is what changed her opinion of her mother and marriage in general. She also learns that Tully has been lying to her about her mother having cancer. It really would have been better if Tully just told her the truth.
Also, I can’t help but wonder how Tully and Cloud afford the house (and all the drugs) since the latter never seems to go to work. I mean, she’s passed out on the couch on a random weekday at 2:30 pm! Did they come from a wealthy family?
And Kate doesn’t even know it yet, but her brother is lying to her about his sexual orientation, which will be a huge blow once she eventually finds out the truth and then realizes Tully knew all along.
In the college flashbacks, we see Sean is struggling with keeping his orientation a secret and feels like everyone is moving on while he’s stuck in the same place.
A now-grown Robbie comes to visit while he’s in town, and while Sean attempts to pick up right where they left off, Robbie informs him that he’s married and expecting a child with a woman named Hannah.
It crushes Sean. His story intrigues me because, from past episodes, we know that he was dating an older man, but in the present-day, Sean shows up to the recital with a woman, who is very clearly his cover so that his family doesn’t think there’s something wrong with him.
It’s heartbreaking to know that he had to suppress that part of himself for his whole life. Do you think Sean will ever come out to the family?
What did you think of the episode?